Life is a bit of a whirlwind these days. It's a delicate balance between house & school & hobbies. If I'm honest, some months it's a struggle to keep my head above water. My best intentions sometimes fall short. I have to say no to invites, stay up late to finish assignments, and ask for help. I'm not good at asking for help.. what I am good at is getting mad when the hubs doesn't offer, like he can see into the rolodex of my mind and know everything that has to be done. Fortunately, I'm also really great at knowing when I'm wrong & apologizing.
I'd like to say 2014 will see me re-commit myself to blogging.. but that'd be a stretch of the truth. I spent some time over my holiday break re-reading past entries, and I'm sad I don't have entries like that to look back upon for 2013, but I'm giving myself a break. Life is a liquid mass, it moves & turns & shapes itself around whatever you stick in it. Right now, blogging regularly isn't something I'm dedicated to, nor do I feel it's something that needs precedence in my life.
Instead, I'm vowing to do one currents post a month, on the 17th, as a sort of 'checking in'. I'm cutting back in other areas as well, making room for what's important. I am still absolutely head-over-heels madly in love with project life... but I can't keep up. Sitting at my computer for several hours throughout the week doesn't leave me with a whole lot of material to work with. (And when I say several, we are talking like LOTS) So I'm cutting back to a 6x8 album, just for 2014. I'm also going chronological/monthly vs. weekly. It's my compromise to keep my hobby, and not have the frustration that I'm not getting it done in the time that I'd like.
My one little word for 2014 is breathe. I could have chosen calm... but I do better with words I can chant as a mantra, or words I can stick in my ignition hypothetically. Last year my word was fierce, and let me tell you, it took on a whole new meaning for me. I thought 2013 would be a year of getting my butt in shape, I wanted to fiercely go after my goal. I had no idea in January when I choose it, that come February, I'd be in school. But let me tell you, I attacked my schooling in a way I don't think I ever have before. At the beginning of every month I started a new class, and every month I'd stare at my assignments and think. "HOLY CRAP! There is NO WAY I can do this! I can't do this! I CAN'T DO THIS!!" Sometimes there were tears, or texts to my husband lamenting the tasks ahead.. and then a day or two would pass, a deadline start to loom, and I'd pull myself together, sit down, and kick the crap out off the assignments. I ended 2013, and my first year of school, with a 4.0 GPA, shocking no one but myself.
So yes, my 2014 word is breathe. I've already proven to myself I CAN do this, I just need to remember to not get so stressed out trying to maintain every aspect of life during the process. Sometimes there will be dirty dishes, and toys strewn everywhere. Sometimes a bed won't get made until right before we get in it. Sometimes clothes will wait 3 days to get hung up. But baths are had, and bellies are full, and we are healthy. The rest can wait, the rest I CAN get help with, it only takes asking.
So. 2014. Let's do this.
time: 10:25 am
eating: applesauce & oatmeal pancakes with a side of bacon
drinking: homemade iced coffee
watching: trying to catch up on episodes of the vampire diaries & american horror story: coven, but more interested in watching the first 48, and forensic files.
reading: i have this book downloaded, and i'm trying to make time to read it.
needing: to get back to work on home improvement projects. little things here & there that have just gotten lost in the shuffle of day to day life.
loving: the sense of calm i have right now... hoping i can remember it & reign in back in when needed.
Until next time :)